Sign of old age. Never take anything for granted

Just before end of the CNY on 2016, Jojo fell sick. She is now down with Central Vestibular syndrome. Link: http://www.asha.org/aud/articles/CentralVestib/entralVestib/

She was walking in circle and healf way through her hind legs will give way. She has started to be blind too and need to walk against a wall to guide her. however, when she faced obstacles such as a wall or chairs, she no longer know how to walk back or turn her head. 

Googled and some say was neuro issue, some say due to old age, some say is stroke. Told mum about it and she say to put her to sleep if she is suffering. 

Ending or giving up is always easy. But who are we to decide for her life? Who say that animals have a lower status in life (卑微) ? 

During desperate, divide guided us. Someone from Jack Rusell Mania group in FB posted on her 18yrs old plus dog surviving through 2 strokes. Out of desperation, i private message her and she link me to this pet TCM in Tampines. I was so happy and thinking. Lets give it a try, jojo!

On 23 Feb, I took half day and went to see the infamous Doc Oh from Animal Ark. Dr oh is so skillful and very 不留情 yet 心细胆大 . In seconds, jojo was covered with needles and whining all the way. Had to keep sayang her and talking to her even she cant really hear us. After all she is already 17 years old plus.

Before we stepped into the TCm, we need to be "officially referred" by vets. So went to see the main animal ark vet and did a brief examine. 

The vet announced that jojo is completely blind, very bad long age ear infection and have several breast lumps which could be cancerous, she is deaf, she could be having blood deficiency....bla bla...I feel like telling the vet. Shut up! I was need to refer to the TCM. But of cause I didnt. I just say i prefer to go straight to treat via TCM. The vet agreed and said: We will do a ultrasound but its free. I agreed and after clearing,we went to make payment for the examine. After paying $38.00, they like give this "ok next patient" attitude. I even had to ask for direction (thinking it was in the same shop area) where i was then told it was about 10 shops down the road. My mind was thinking...hmmNever mind. Focus..see the TCM

The moment i step into the TCM, a totally different feel came in. It was so positive and calm. There was no stresss smell that usually you smell it the moment you stepped into any vet. 

After some feel here and there, touch here and there, shine her eyes with touchlight and ear, Dr oh say ..no she is not blind..See the reaction of the pupil towards the light. If she is blind she will not even have any reaction. I was like "Wah" Lucky i never listen to the "Vet" and feel like walking over and ask the vets to shut up and stop giving those Drugs to those poor animals liao (mind thinking of my mother in law as example)

After about half an hour of torture, jojo eyes was slightly bigger (indeed) and fell asleep in the cage which she usually hates. For it means going vet or grooming. Sleeping soundly is the word to describe. Cannot imagine putting her to sleep at that moment. I would regret my whole life.

The hard reality moment came, $600 for Jojo half an hr treatment and medicine. That excludes mine medicine yet. Just half a day, i spent $1k for TCM...i was like okok..act rich act rich...hahaha

Demise of my dearest Wai Po (My mum's mum) - 28 Oct 2013

"Ah karn orh, le lai lo" - My child! You are here ah!

That is what she will always say when she see us..

A quiet, cute and foodie old lady who has slough all her life and bravely picked up the sole responsibility of the whole Chng family of 7 children. Her husband whom passed away then, she was 50. She washed clothes and work as cleaners for those rich person then in the 1970s while missing her hubby dearly in her heart. Within a year, her eldest son met an accident and left her too. She was devastated but she bite on, for the family.

Since then, she never stop worrying or relax for a moment till she was in her 70s. Not only she took good care of the family, she even took good care of her grandchildren.

She was ever independent and so good in cooking. She was a foodie too. My favorite dish was sambal chilli chicken wing and fried tang hoon. While Durian, "Sai" or known as persimmon, yam ring, fried hor fun and many more...She can eat man! When its not nice or not to her liking she will tell you or reject eating and we will laugh about it.

There was once, she shared she requested for Yam ring, the stall heard as hor fun and she was so pissed when she reached home, realising it was not what she want. And yes, she went back again to scold the person and change it. Cute right!

Every chinese new year, since young going to her place was my favourite destination. Because she will protect me from scolding from my strict dad due to my negligence and resulted in breaking utensil. Also because she was prepare lots of goodies and all our favorite food. Not forgetting, all family members, yes, All, will be presence. Not a single in absence.All about 30 to 40 people will be squeeze to the small 4room flat in simei. But all are in super high spirits. Not to mentioned the few uncles will be fighting any available cosy corner and fell asleep. While the Chng sisters will be gathered in the kitchen chitchating and laughing merrily. The grandchildren will be running around or entertained by the world nicest uncle - Uncle Lawrence, who is all small kids favorite with his joke and entertainments. While all these are happening, wai po was smiling non stop and enjoying the moments.

I love to hug her and smell her and sayang her hair and she will say to me: ah ma lao liao, tao meng buey sui (granny is old, hair not pretty liao) then she will giggle away.

She didn't stop worrying about her only son left, who is my second uncle and youngest in the family, right till her last breath. The uncle too was her bao bei...she misses him dearly where he rarely visit her but kept to herself.When he visit her, she will bring all his favourite food. She even worries about him of his financial and thinking of how not to burden him with her "hou shi" (funeral)

She stayed with my third auntie who has no children, since they move from Geylang to Simei in the 80s. When wai po start to fall sick, she took care of her unconditiongly and ensure she was ever in the best comfort. Knowing deep inside, she was not the favourite but just do her best as a daughter. Thank you san yi! Thank you

A whole life as a wife, mother, granny, in laws - she scored 100 marks in my view. Even though my mum would say when wai po was younger she was very fierce. Guess she has no choice as a single mother and weak woman who has to brave all her might to take care of the family and endure her pain.

Wai Po, please take care of your self out there, ok. Don't worry too much. Be free.

Biggest Regrets in my life

Tan Wee Thong, my grandpa passed on peacefully on the 12th March 2011. We did not received the news till the 15th March France time (15th Mar Afternoon Singapore Time). We were 10799.5km away in france. We were lost in touch with family for 2weeks due to poor network and sim card spoilt. We didnt make it home to see him for the last time or managed to attend his funeral. How did he look like? how was he? where is he now? is he better off? anymore pain? Trying to recall memories..3 Mar was his last birthday, at Tembeling Rd with all my 4 Gugu and me. We had so much fun, singing, recalling memories etc.. When I was in kindergarten, he would come n fetch me to go to san gor school to buy recess food. On Sunday when we visit him, he will bring us to the playground and buy us ice cream. When we stay over during the school holidays, we witness his daily routines. How he combed his hair, how his sleeping pattern, how he make the tea, how he tied the towel on his forehead, how he smoke with his "hoon tang", how his "hoon you" saved life, how he help out in the toa payoh market stall, how he cooked his "pei tou fish", how he loved us with his man of few words Ah Kong, I love you and I will missed you terribly. Sorry that I did not make it home on time, sorry for shouting when you stayed with us. Sorry for all my worng doing Ah kong, thanks for sharing with me what is "Char kwek Teow", "Or Lua", "Lor Me" 4D, "12 kee". Thanks for all the teaching .. Take care and I miss you

Last day of 2010

Its the last day of the year 2010..A new year is coming by with new challenges, new stories and more exciting events in 2011...But am i ready?

My mind is blank..should i continue in the current situation and learn to grow from it? can i do it?is this wat i want?

Pain and Suffering

Jojo last week had a "aunty" visiting her again. Whole house was stained almost everywhere she sat or stand. She was also not eating well..thought she was not feeling well..Did not really understand her suffering till yesterday when i had my "aunty" visited me too..We both had irregular visit. So when it came, it is so pain and cramp and heavy (especially for me)..
Food was not our first piriority then. Lethargic was what we both felt. At least she did not had to wait up in the middle of the night to wash clothes and change. That a advantage for her for she had no clothes on. But it must be so painful and cold for her. For I had my longs pants on yet my legs still felt cold and like breaking.

Lucky it lasted few day for her..Now she is eating well again. But recently seems to feel something near her chest and lung. Will continue to observe. Hopefully she is good.

Take care Jojo..we love you

Demise of Singapore GReat Mother - Mdm Kwa Geok Choo

The wonderful, humble, mother of Singapore Prime Minister - Mdm Kwa Geok Choo has passed away. Passing at the age of 89, leaving behind MM Lee and 3 other children.

Though she was very intelligent, she chose to remain the woman behind a successful man so that he could continue with his passion - Love for Singapore. She would be the main pillar, supporting MM Lee in her way and loving the children in her traditional way. She was the model of all modern Woman. She could have chosen to be in the grand stand like her hubby but instead she chose to remain humble and quiet, always walking 2 steps behind him. Which woman would do that nowadays?

Rest in peace , mother of Singapore.

MM Lee, please hang on. We still need you

Family Day

Today is my office Family Day. We celebrated at the Singapore Zoo this year. It was a fun, happy, excited, sad and fickle minded weather day

Fun - everybody put everything down and got the whole family to came in together. Parents, Children, young couple. It was a beautiful sight seeing 3 Generation attending Corporate Event.

Happy n Excited - get to go in for Free with unlimited free Tram ride. I was so excited. As the lunch provided was my favourite : KFC ( but it didnt turn out so nice, oil was already seeping out and turned cold) However, I get to see all the animals - Sea lion, sea seal, elephant, giraffe, baboons and many many

Sad - I brought along the Digital Camera, planning to take wonderful "wne xin" sight but then realised that I didnt brought along the memory card. Was super sad and angry with myself
Also wished we could brought JoJo along as she was part of our small family..

Fickle minded Day - Was super super Hot and Heaty plus "Hip" then the next moment it rain.

However, overall was nice and thanks to Sandy and the rest of the CHR team.